Tuesday, June 30, 2009

A visit from the Noonday Devil

Interesting turn of phrase, right? I always wondered what set the Noonday Devil apart from other devils. I remember it was one of the particular things that Max Von Sydow was hoping to rid poor little Linda Blair of.

Speaking of which...possible side effects of Melphalan shown below.

Anyhow...back to the Noonday Devil.

Turns out that per Augustine, the Noonday Devil, as distinct from other devils, shows up at particular times to make us doubt that "it's all worth it." It's a sadness that sets in...a certain defeatism that targets us when we're getting a little weary of the burden.

Well the Noonday Devil has been paddling my ass most of the day.

I got my results back from last week's labs. 0.3g/dl. I have hit the wall definitively in terms of progress.

Not much else to say, really. My question remains as I identified it last week: if I'm relying on VRD to get remission shouldn't I have been on this in the first place, with transplants (tandem or otherwise) AFTER achieving remission, and then maintenance?

To use another acronym, rather than use VTD-PACE or VRD...how about WTF?

The question is one only BB can answer. Until then, I'll try to keep the Noonday Devil at bay.