Sunday, May 13, 2012

Plant vs. Zombie...

Another pop culture reference...Plants vs. Zombies is an extremely popular game for mobile phones.

As I tell the wife, the best jokes are the ones you have to explain!  ;)


I've been feeling listless for, oh, I dunno, six months or so.  I've been taking Ativan (Lorazempam) to help me sleep soundly.  It's worked pretty well...I don't wake up feeling like I'm the walking dead, as is the case with Ambien.  And yet I get a solid night's sleep. does drain me of any will to DO anything.  I feel like any effort is too much.  I can, on a weekend, muster up a round of golf...though truth be told even then I feel like 16 holes is plenty.  That's not good news for somebody fairly young (43) and hopefully living every day to its fullest insofar as I am hopefully cheating death.

Turns out Ativan is essentially Valium.  That would explain it.  

So it seems I can either not sleep -- and be a zombie -- or take Ativan -- and feel like a potted plant.


I think I vote zombie, at this point.  It gives me more drive at work, even if I feel like collapsing from exhaustion.

In any case, a high class problem considering I could be pushing up daisies right now.

In other news, the finger hurts like crazy still, although it just now appears to be starting to improve.  The doc said it should show no signs of improvement for two weeks but I can see the flesh starting to try to fill in the gap were it was dug out.  I'm sure it will be another month before it is presentable but I'm glad to see something happening, given how painful it is.

There has been news in the last week about Revlimid being linked to secondary cancers, including carcinoma...I'm sure this was put in action by the hatchet job that quack dermatologist did to me (I have dubbed him "The Butcher of Encino") but the Revlimid probably didn't help.   More on that, perhaps, in the coming days.



  1. Hey, Nick. Re: listlessness, have you read Lance Armstrong's "It's Not About the Bike?" The listlessness might not actually be pharmacological. He discusses something that may be similar in his book. Might be worth reading up on it (it's a great book, anyway).


  2. And, for what it's worth, have you tried any of the homeopathic sleep aids... valerian (smells like stinky sneakers) taking two at night offers a good night's sleep without any after effects - comes from the valerian plant (root actually). There may be some others that I haven't explored, and a naturopathic doctor would be able to determine what they are.

    Intending you are finding some other sleep options for the highest and best good of all concerned, so be it and so it is!

  3. Hey Nick, I took Ativan for a while for sleep during treatment and had the same experience. Actually ended up having blank spots in my memory from it (one while driving which was unsettling) so I stopped it. I take Benadryl to sleep, sometimes Melatonin with it, or sometimes Benadryl & Tylenol PM. Maybe that will help....Jon